Will there ever be a fairy tale ending??
Going to leave my workplace soon. Nice physical environment, met a lot of friends especially three that have made positive changes to my life in one way or another. Would like to take this opportunity to thank them if they are reading the blog. To use the Chan Brother's slogan, " Life has never been the same since I started working there" :D
Thinking about leaving the place does make me sad cos I have been there for almost two years. I guess, I will miss the nice people there like the admin staff and other colleagues and friends that I have made during the two years. But I guess the time is almost up cos being an academic place and I have no intention to pursue a masters at the moment, so working there is a bit stagnant and moreover because it is a contract job, things aren't really that stable at all and I am not able to pursue my interest in Business Intelligence and combining Chinese Ancient Wisdom with Business. And moreover, there is this guy in my dept who seems to be picking up on me and throwing his weight at me (not literally of course or I would have been crushed by him. Haha!). Crazy guy, no idea is it because his enemy is my good friend that is why he pick on me. Like, I told many friends, he is a major push factor, in my decision to leave soon. If he weren't around, I might have stayed a little longer cos like I mentioned I like the physical environment there. But one has to give credit here as well, if it weren't for him I would not have gained a lot of knowledge in statistics.
During the two years there, I have learnt quite a lot in statistics, SAS software, sharpening my people skill and gain a lot of knowledge esp. abt health. (Thanks to one of the friends I mentioned above haha!) So I would not say that I did not spend the time there well enough. If I were not there, many doors that I have found open now would have been closed to me.
Like every story book, the author would always like to close the story with a very nice ending. And ending that is very close to a fairy tale ending, a happy ending. Much as I want to close the final chapter with something nice but I guess I maybe asking for a miracle. Many of you readers would have known that I have caused extreme hurt to a lady that I like (like only lah, don't extrapolate it to love, definitely not that stage yet.) A result of a lot of mistakes made but I guess I am the main culprit. Life is really a joker, thinking back the whole thing, I seriously do not have any idea whether to laugh or cry at it. Normally a person would not caused any hurt at all to the person he/she likes or loves, but I cannot believe Life played such a big joke on me. Now she and I are not talking at all. (Well, I am not at the workplace that often as well nowadays), I have no idea whether she is still angry with me at all. Sometime thinking back the whole thing really can make me feel down for a few hrs, but I guess this type of thing, I can only let time dilute it which goes the same for her.
All I hope now is that she will forgive me and we can still be friends before I leave the place. Now that would be a good ending but I guess I am asking for a miracle cos if I were in her shoes, and esp when the thing only happen a few mths ago, there is no way I would forgive myself. Sigh! Damn, why must life play such a big joke at my love life?
A colleague of mine was telling me a conversation that he had with another friend of mine. This friend was telling my colleague that my career is doing quite well the only thing that is missing in my life is a girlfriend. Haha, I guess he knows me very well. Same thoughts here, my friend but alas, if Life keeps on playing such jokes at me, I think I might be alone for the rest of my life.
To the lady, if you are still reading my blog, which I really hope you do, I hope to convey my apologies to you personally. I am extremely regretful about what I did. Causing such a hurt was never meant to be intentional, and I can understand that it is very unlikely you will forgive me. All I hope for now is that we can still be friends and would still have a chance to poke a straw into a bottled cup of mineral water for you.
Crossing all my ten fingers and hope I can close this final chapter with a good ending.
Thinking about leaving the place does make me sad cos I have been there for almost two years. I guess, I will miss the nice people there like the admin staff and other colleagues and friends that I have made during the two years. But I guess the time is almost up cos being an academic place and I have no intention to pursue a masters at the moment, so working there is a bit stagnant and moreover because it is a contract job, things aren't really that stable at all and I am not able to pursue my interest in Business Intelligence and combining Chinese Ancient Wisdom with Business. And moreover, there is this guy in my dept who seems to be picking up on me and throwing his weight at me (not literally of course or I would have been crushed by him. Haha!). Crazy guy, no idea is it because his enemy is my good friend that is why he pick on me. Like, I told many friends, he is a major push factor, in my decision to leave soon. If he weren't around, I might have stayed a little longer cos like I mentioned I like the physical environment there. But one has to give credit here as well, if it weren't for him I would not have gained a lot of knowledge in statistics.
During the two years there, I have learnt quite a lot in statistics, SAS software, sharpening my people skill and gain a lot of knowledge esp. abt health. (Thanks to one of the friends I mentioned above haha!) So I would not say that I did not spend the time there well enough. If I were not there, many doors that I have found open now would have been closed to me.
Like every story book, the author would always like to close the story with a very nice ending. And ending that is very close to a fairy tale ending, a happy ending. Much as I want to close the final chapter with something nice but I guess I maybe asking for a miracle. Many of you readers would have known that I have caused extreme hurt to a lady that I like (like only lah, don't extrapolate it to love, definitely not that stage yet.) A result of a lot of mistakes made but I guess I am the main culprit. Life is really a joker, thinking back the whole thing, I seriously do not have any idea whether to laugh or cry at it. Normally a person would not caused any hurt at all to the person he/she likes or loves, but I cannot believe Life played such a big joke on me. Now she and I are not talking at all. (Well, I am not at the workplace that often as well nowadays), I have no idea whether she is still angry with me at all. Sometime thinking back the whole thing really can make me feel down for a few hrs, but I guess this type of thing, I can only let time dilute it which goes the same for her.
All I hope now is that she will forgive me and we can still be friends before I leave the place. Now that would be a good ending but I guess I am asking for a miracle cos if I were in her shoes, and esp when the thing only happen a few mths ago, there is no way I would forgive myself. Sigh! Damn, why must life play such a big joke at my love life?
A colleague of mine was telling me a conversation that he had with another friend of mine. This friend was telling my colleague that my career is doing quite well the only thing that is missing in my life is a girlfriend. Haha, I guess he knows me very well. Same thoughts here, my friend but alas, if Life keeps on playing such jokes at me, I think I might be alone for the rest of my life.
To the lady, if you are still reading my blog, which I really hope you do, I hope to convey my apologies to you personally. I am extremely regretful about what I did. Causing such a hurt was never meant to be intentional, and I can understand that it is very unlikely you will forgive me. All I hope for now is that we can still be friends and would still have a chance to poke a straw into a bottled cup of mineral water for you.
Crossing all my ten fingers and hope I can close this final chapter with a good ending.
posted by Strategist at 8:05 PM
2 Comments:
All the best in your career and finding that special person in your life.
Thank you very much! :) On the bright side, at least not both of them crash :P
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